Below are a series of writings which are composed when I feel emotional certain about a situation, or place in time, or even an event. Writing these down have helped me with my emotional timeline, to capture those moments where I feel low.


Always this late.

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Swallowed in whole for the rest of the night, I now feel ok

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I was slouched in the back of the car, my head against the glass window, stretching my eyes upward at the trees. Leaves were falling down in the direction of the car and it reassured me, that moving on is ok.

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Being a ghost makes so much sense now

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And in that moment, I swear we were infinite

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I don’t count the days anymore

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All these things are gone

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this is the first day of the rest of my life, yesterday was the last day of s life together with you

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As I placed the surface of my tiny phone against the window of the plane, and saw it against the world. I wondered, if this device could make a downward descent, that would be ok

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There are always those people you know you’ll see later in life

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Youth Center

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The rain transformed, it all feels right

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Blue birds cannot see the color blue

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It helps to write your name on the map I keep in my pocket when I travel, on the city where I’m going. Sometimes, it helps.

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Thinking of those left in the dark. Some to rot, some to be discovered, Regardlessly.

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Trusting so much of this machine, harnessing my life, and defining my edge simultaneously. That, is an extension of oneself.

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I travel to give myself an excuse to run into you again. I know it’ll happen soon.

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The frame of my vision contained these freshly-fallen gifts from the trees. I knew, the earth has given us something beautiful.

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My visibility has been so pivotal, It’s so easy to hate myself for what I’ve done. But sometimes romance isn’t between two people, and you can connect with yourself.

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As the creeper that girdles the tree-trunk, the Law runneth forward and back

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I wake up just about every morning thinking if I make the right decisions, then I get hit with the perpetual signals that make me take the risks I take

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We used to grow like the oldest tree in my backyard

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The person I once trusted, the person I once knew. Until my bones rusted over

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All that meant something. I was so hopeful. I saw it shatter.

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I asked for this feeling a long time ago, because I thought I would never experience it. Now I suffer with it everyday. Life is so fragile and so easy to shatter

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So I embrace the parts of myself that I long to change.

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I am so scared by the things I cannot see. Like the simple idea I don’t keep you up at night with a smile tickling of your mouth.

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Share my collapse, there’s enough weight here to bury us both.

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The times When I feel the most lost, I feel like its the window of time where I learn the most about myself.

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We're only human,

Buried underneath our skin problems

But if we look a little deeper

Guess we won't find our souls

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So can we let stars light the way,

Through heavenly rain?

It doesn't matter where we are

We're all looking at the same stars

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My visibility has been so pivotal, It’s so easy to hate myself for what I’ve done. But sometimes romance isn’t between two people, and you can connect with yourself.

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So i fucking kicked the elevator wall as hard as I could over and over again. I watched the aluminum swallow my foot and the shaft violently shook. A piece of me wanted the damn thing to drop from the 8th floor and take me with it.

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I can let myself out a barrier, telling myself it won't bother me. But it always finds its way in. Even thinking of what matters, what I find beautiful, what I'm thankful for. But you always find your way in.

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I'm so sorry to disappoint you. I'm so sorry for not being there. I'm so sorry for not being there.

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I asked for this feeling a long time ago, because I thought I wouldn't never experience it. Now I suffer with it everyday. Life is so fragile and so easy to shatter.

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All that meant something. I was so hopeful. Everything don't shatter the hands. Everything I saw back of your hand

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I wish today felt like the last November. Even though I don't remember it, I know I didn't feel as numb as I do now.

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I was sitting next to a boy and girl, their ages paralleled the same as your two. Both playing minecraft like yours would, they softly rose their heads simultaneously and looked me in the eyes, as they glowed from the sunset piercing through the window. We both were looking into familiar faces.

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As much as life takes you to places you don’t want to be, there is always somewhere that is waiting for you. Watching you, waiting for your arrival.

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There's something about being elevated watching the momentum of the earth pivot by as the cloud explode with lightning. Moments like these make me never want to get off the plane.

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The most difficult part of coming off of the Tarmac is knowing you won't be there when I get off.

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It's kinda weird how you always have to touch the bottom of the pool in the deep end.

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It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply